Dark Night Of The Soul really made me self-analyze myself, more specifically my soul. St. John of the Cross focuses on what brings him closer and what takes him away from Christ. This made me think how I struggle with self-evaluation in my Christian walk since my human nature (my flesh) tends to take over my spiritual growth.
In the first chapter St. John of Cross says, "The loving mother is like the grace of God, for, as soon as the soul is regenerated by its new warmth and fervor for the service of God, He treats it in the same way; He makes it to find spiritual milk, sweet and delectable, in all things of God, without any labor of its own, and also great pleasure in spiritual exercises, for here God is giving to it the breast of His tender love, even as to a child." God gives us the blessing of spiritual milk to drink when we are new Christians, but it is our job to grow beyond the simple milk and consume more complex foods. If we consume spiritual milk all our lives, we will not grow and stay stagnant. We have all heard time after time that God hates lukewarm Christianity, and He will spit you out of His mouth. Personally, I know how it can become easy for me to make a habit of acting the same way and committing the same sins. It is time for me to embrace change.
Toward the end of the school year, it can become easy to prioritize personal engagements. Therefore, we might be like St. John of the Cross somedays feeling like our soul is in a dark spot, but this is needed for spiritual growth to occur. I have realized the hardest times in my life always make me lean on God, which causes me to grow closer to Him.
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You're really calling me out with that l last paragraph. It is so easy to to stray when we go through trials, but it is important to remember the importance of pruning. Love your post!
ReplyDeleteThe amount of times I have told myself to not let my academics come in between me and the Lord is extremely depressing. You would think that with all of the countless self-reminders I would remain solid on my Christian walk, but no. The amount of times I have failed, especially towards the end of the semester, is absolutely astronomical!
ReplyDeleteBut, not today! Like you said, I am going to follow in St. John's example and not allow anything to get in my way. Because, lets be honest, the days that we do not make time for the Lord always end up being the days when we need Him the most.